| You should write a song where the concept is…
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| You’re basically writing like a love letter, or like a piece of advice
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| To your mother, when she was your age
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| I don’t know
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| Maybe I would write you a happy ending
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| I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning
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| I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you
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| And let you experience all the ways that happiness could bloom before you
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| Or maybe I’m naïve…
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| Maybe I’m just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed
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| It would somehow grow inside you
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| Spent so much of my time wishing you were different
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| But reality is that with life can’t never be provision
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| But if I could wish for one thing, I’d go back and I’d fix it
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| I’d tackle all your obstacles and kill 'em with precision
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| And better the intentions of every single person
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| Who’d play a part in you learning exactly what your worth is
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| I’d shower you with purpose, I’d wipe hate off the surface
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| I’d reshape all your pain and make it fucking worth it
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| No more feeling worthless, no more fucking searching
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| No more of that fraud shit, nobody else could hurt you
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| Yeah, said nobody else could hurt you
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| And if they ever tried too I’d wipe 'em from the Earth too
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| Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
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| I know that you been running from everything that’s behind you
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| I know you’ve been burying everything deep inside you
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| I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
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| But I’m stuck sitting in this time frame
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| Struggling with my demons and playing these stupid mind game
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| One day it could get better, maybe it could get better
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| Maybe we could change shit, no more inclement weather
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| Know you hated your mom, know it went through your mind
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| You were just like me, wish that you had more time
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| To see life from a different angle, wrestle with a different angel
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| Wouldn’t lose your wings and fall from heaven like a cliffhanger
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| Everything is different now, nothing is the same
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| And nowadays I swear it feels like you don’t know my name
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| But I look at the mirror and I see you every day
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| I’m you in every way, every hue and every shade
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| And maybe you should know, it’s the last thing that I wanted
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| Cuz what I hate about you makes me feel like I’m haunted
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| And I don’t wanna spend the rest of my time on the run and-
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| So I’m just gonna confront it, yeah I’m just gonna confront it
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| And tell you that I love you for everything you made me
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| And that you need to hear this even if it makes you angry
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| God lives inside you, you’ve already found him
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| The Devil lives in memories and you just let him hound you
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| And I despise your church for every fucking thing they taught you
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| It’s just a fucking stain that I wish I could wipe off you
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| That I wish I could wipe off you
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| And I forgive you for doing everything that it cost you
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| Everything that it cost you
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| Fame is such a heavy price, I wish it didn’t cost you
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| Losing a part of me that would follow you to Hell
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| Follow you to hatred, or follow you to jail
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| Followed you to patterns that I could never get out of
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| Now I realize that I could never make it with that love
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| Now I realize that shit is the alternative outcome
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| Never wanted you to save me, I just wish I count some
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| I just wish that you grew up with someone you could count on
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| I wish you knew that you could never make it without love
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| For your goddamn self, and that you never ever find it in anybody else
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| Cuz I would help you find you
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| And if I saw it killing you I swear I would revive you
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| And if that meant the end of me
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| I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy end in peace
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| Because, you are such a special thing
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| You’re not just my mom, but you’re the reason I exist
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| And the best life that you could’ve had for yourself without making a mistake
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| Would have meant I woulda had a nicer childhood
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| And even though my childhood wasn’t perfect and I still love you
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| I just want you to know that if I could go back and do one thing for you
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| Or be one person for you
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| I would make sure, not just for my sake, but so that you could’ve had a nicer
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| life
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| And a nicer childhood, that you know
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| You would not have made the mistakes that put us all in this bad situation |
| And not have the strength to leave
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| But just so that you would have been happier and stronger
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| Even if I didn’t exist, even it meant that I was never born
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| That’s what I would have wanted for you
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| Yeah, and if that meant the end of me
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| I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
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| Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
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| I know you’ve been running from everything that’s behind you
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| I know that you’ve been burying everything deep inside you
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| I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
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| And if that meant the end of me
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| I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
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| And if that meant the end of me
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| I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
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| And if that meant the end of me
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| I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
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| I don’t know
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| Maybe I would write you a happy ending
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| I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning
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| I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you
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| And let you experience all the ways that happiness could bloom before you
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| Or maybe I’m naïve…
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| Maybe I’m just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed
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| It would somehow grow inside you
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| And that I could hide you from the rain
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| So that it could be easier for happiness to find you
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| Or maybe I’m still a kid who’s caught in a dream
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| I’m the heir to the throne of a princess who’s still trying to be queen
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| Or maybe we’re all just caught in the winds of a massacre
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| The blackened leaves of dying, black dahlias |